I made it through my first week of student teaching. The hardest part was being without my baby so much. It got to the point where I was second guessing teaching because I felt like it wasn't worth being without him like this. Maybe I could change my degree to something that doesn't require so much commitment? I don't know... is it worth it to have come this far and then quit right at the end?
The answer to that question is probably really obvious to most of you especially, because Max is being taken care of by people who love him most. That does give me some peace of mind. I guess it's more me. The feeling of coming home from a long day of being without him and then he doesn't want anything to do with me for the first ten minutes makes me so sad.
I know he's in good hands and I'm so grateful to my family members and friends who have and will be making sacrifices to help me earn my degree. I wouldn't be doing this if I had to send Max to day care or have someone I don't know watch him. It's because of all of the wonderful people in my life that I'm able to do this. Thank you Mom, Brenda, Soin, Lizzy, Sheilia, Emily, and Camilla. I love you guys. Thank you for giving up your time and energy to support our family and contribute to me earning my degree.
I'm just having a hard time because I've never been away from Max so much. I usually spend pretty much every minute of every day with him. It's so hard! Ugh.
I'm gonna try to be strong. I know he will be great with everyone. There's only 12 weeks of student teaching left. I can do it! Right?